Hidup aku sangat bosan. Isnin sampai Jumaat, bangun pagi terus bersiap g keje. Hantar Yamin, and then rushing g keje. Sampai ofis yang bising, takde kawan. My bos, my colleague hate me. So lonely in this small world.
5.30 ptg atau 6 ptg, rushing balik rumah. Ambik Yamin. Singgah rumah mak & duduk sampai pukul 6. Balik rumah terus masak ataupun lepak depan TV. Hari Isnin, Star King - kekadang malas nak tengok. Selasa U & I, sangat malas jugak nak tengok.
Pukul 7.55 mlm, tengok Love You Thousand Times. Dreaming that I have someone loving me like that too, which I never have. That person seem like hating me that much now. We rarely meet up even though staying under one roof. I'm not being pampered anymore.
I sleep around 12am, after Yamin. That person already sleep that time - maybe almost 2 hours ago.
Then once I woke up, the routine keep repeating.
What make me happy?
1. I need a friend - really closed to talk too...
2. I need money - at least i don't have empty pocket. I'm having financially difficulty, something that I can't share to someone that I'm not close to.
3. Nice & soothing word - I really hate it if someone curse me like hell. Sometimes I just want to share something, my thought and info. But at last, I've being curse. It hurts more if that person is someone I love :( so damn sad.
This is my boring life. But I don't want to die yet even this is what I'm being through. I'm changing my life by next year. Why next year? Don't know...I wish I still alive then.
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