Today I viewed 'someone' profile in FB. Yeah yeah...I know that he is happy with his family, he's married...I just noticed few weeks ago after saw his sister's marriage photo. Takpela...I'll be alright. Yes, my heart beating fast and my feeling hurts... I really do. That time, I have no one to talk to. I missed my bestfren Awin (she's leaving to Umrah last weeks). So, I'm just go through it on my own.
That's right, I shouldn't take this seriously, I really shouldn't. I don't think that I still have feeling towards him, maybe because of my thyroid. First, he is my first deep love. Our love is so pure, we never ever holding hands during our relationship.
Cukup la 2 perenggan bahasa English, hehe...sbnrnya aku memang malas nak pikir, tapi biase la kan bila kita tgk someone yang kita kenal apetah lagi orang yang penah kita sayang....huhu...layan je.
Banyak benda yang menganggu fikiran aku pasal dia. I mean sesuatu yang tak penah aku pikirkan selama ni. Bila tengok wife dia, dia kawen ngan ex gf dia sebelum aku. Da nak tambah 3 orang anak pun. Aku rase dia sambung hubungan dia lepas break ngan aku. Tetibe aku teringat expresi kawan dia yang sangat pelik lepas kitaorg break dlu. Now I know! Hubungan kitorg tak sampai pun 6 bulan tapi penuh dengan kenangan yang menguris hati. Sedih sangat ni...huhu... tapi ape nak dikenang sgt. Bila pikir balik, bagus gak aku takde happy ending ngan dia. Sbb mak dia tak suka aku. Aku orang tak sekaya dia. Dlu aku anyam (haha...tak tahan tol!) angan2 nak kawen ngan orang kaya. Tapi time tuh aku tak ukur baju dibadan sendiri. Yela, sape aku pon? Aku bukan anak majistret ape? So, aku tau aku tak layak ngan dia, cuma sbb aku sayang dia dlu....ntahla
Kalau dipikir balik camne aku mempertahankan hubungan kitaorg dlu, huhu..he's not worth it, Deja.
Takpela, berbalik dengan ape yang aku ada sekarang. Walau aku tak kaya, takde motor Harley Davidson, aku masih boleh berjalan2 dalam kereta dengan suami dan anak tersayang. Aku takde bapak majistret, tapi alhamdulillah abah ada beberapa bidang tanah yang harganye berlipat2 ganda dari harta seorang majistret. Alhamdulillah gak aku takde mak yang mcm dia. Mak mertua aku adalah mak mertua yang the best in this world. Aku rase ada bagusnya Allah rancang sumer ni untuk aku sbb Dia je tau ape yang layak untuk aku yang tak punyer ape ni.
Tapi.....kenapa? Kenapa Allah jumpakan aku dengan dia? :( Kenapaa??????
Even if I empty my heart and wipe my tears
And try to fall asleep
You come up to my mind again
I only think about you
I don’t miss you, I don’t think about you
I’m fine
But at the end, you’re the only one, I only think about you
*At the end, it’s you, again
Every day are the same, I only think about you
Whatever I do, whether whenever
At the end, it’s you again, you again, you again
Every day are the same, I only think about you, only you
Even if I put on make up and do my hair and meet my friends
At the end, you’re the only one, I only think about you
And try to fall asleep
You come up to my mind again
I only think about you
I don’t miss you, I don’t think about you
I’m fine
But at the end, you’re the only one, I only think about you
*At the end, it’s you, again
Every day are the same, I only think about you
Whatever I do, whether whenever
At the end, it’s you again, you again, you again
Every day are the same, I only think about you, only you
Even if I put on make up and do my hair and meet my friends
At the end, you’re the only one, I only think about you
So, En. H, sila la lenyap dari hidup & pemikiran aku. Aku sangat harap ko & keluarga & segala2nya sekeliling ko tak penah pun wujud dlm idop aku! Pergi....selama2 nye!
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