Let Us Pray

Distracted ngan 2^nd interview by T_V and the boss keep calling. I’m still considering, and I didn’t answer his call.

Suddenly, aku terpikir pasal kawan2 sekitar aku. Dorang punyer gaji, life and carrier sangat sangat bagus. Nak banding aku yang tak berapa ni. Well, aku pon tak tau nape aku jadi camni. Aku dlu sangat aktif dan kiranya bijak jugak la. Aku tersalah buat keputusan ke? Even, comparing my life with the person I hated most it’s a ‘crime’. It’s killing me now!

Again, I refer kat my sis, she’s the only one who know about this except my husband. Malas nak share dekat mak… nanti macam2 dia kata. Yes, again my sis asked which one yang lebih berat. Duit ke anak? And later still the same, Anak! Huhu…

And I shared my thought about my friends and all. My sis said that not everyone who has everything is complete. Betul gak kan? Mungkin ada duit, tapi belum kawen. Tak pun, maybe suami isteri banyak duit tapi takde anak.

So, I’ve made up my mind. I will reject the invitation for interview. I can’t look back anymore. The offer too long ago and I’ve been a 2^nd choice earlier. My sis also shared that if I missed this, there will a lot to come. I’ve to confident and pray.

Huhu… Allah, help me :(

My plan, tomorrow I’ll see Hj Jamil for my thyroid. See what he says. Next week, I’ll see doctor to check if I still have the thyroid. If everything okay, I’ll see Doctor Razif next week. I wish that I’ve good news to tell next 2 months. Pray pray!